first crushie....

Recently caught up with an old friend back in elementary days through friendster. He was my first crush! haha I remember him being dark, athletic (swimmer), and short before. Not too long ago, we bumped into each other during the DLSU entrance. Super shocked on how tall and different he is, I hardly recognized him at all. He turned into this tall, fit, muscular athlete in a span of 5 years. Dopey me just staring at him with mouth wide open in shock. Exagg! haha! Then he finally saw me and said hi. I couldn't hide the fact that I was happy and giddy to see him again after so long. Sadly, we didn't get to talk much because of the queue. Hopefully, I'll see him again someday. heehee First crush never dies haha! Whatever.

free will---or God's will?

Life is what we make it----is it really? Is that equivalent to free will? What about God's will? How do they meet along the way? These questions were thrown at me by a friend which made me stop and think. I sought the opinion of my friend who wrote about this topic in her blog just recently. She gave some interesting remarks about this topic. thanks j! hehe People of course will have different answers and explanations which came from their own insights and understanding. We don't necessarily have to believe and agree on what they say.

Allow me to share what I believe. Isaiah 55:8-9 states," For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways,says the Lord. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts." I think it all really comes down to this. Whatever choice we make in life, may it be in career, in love, in life generally, God's purpose is still the spotlight. And hopefully, may we learn something valuable from the choices we make.

Please leave comments about this topic if you have something to correct or share. I'll be more than happy to discuss it with you. thanks!

expressionless

I'm kind of frustrated about being unexpressive through words. It's like my mouth does not dictate what my mind is saying...or screaming about. My friend and I were joking about how total opposites we are. She possess this tough chick attitude and earns the respect...or fear of others. While timid old me, always the soft spoken go-with-the-flow kind of girl stands behind people like my tough pal. Sadly for me, even guys take the wrong idea of how I really feel and assume I don't care. And I end up disappointed at myself for not expressing my feelings more. Friends advise me to speak my mind, say how I really feel and just be magpakatotoo. Maybe I need to try this. Maybe I need to change a tiny part of my attitude. Maybe I need to find the connection of my vocal chords to my heart.

Blogging's a start. I'm kinda treating it as my personal therapy. Guess I find my inner voice easily through blogging huh.

Reminiscing

Hello world!
I'm finally entering the world of blogging after much prodding from my friends. heehee
Here goes....
Earlier this afternoon I sat down by the terrace of our house and started thinking about my grandpa. In my mind I replayed scenes of the happy times with him in the terrace. I vividly remembered him lovingly watering his precious bonsai plants which surrounded the terrace. He would always proudly describe and show them off to his friends whenever they came to our house. Born with a green thumb, grandpa would expertly sow plant seeds in our small makeshift garden and spend the afternoon away gardening. How quick time flies. It seems as if it was just yesterday I was this bony seven year old kid sitting on his lap and listening intently to his childhood stories. Those warm memories triggered the emo in me and made me realized how much I missed him.

I recently read something in a random blog that caught my attention. It said,"Never give up on the things that make you smile." I posted this on ym and a friend immediately asked me"ano nga ba nagpapa-smile sayo?" Caught unguarded, I replied "madami eh. pero mababaw." His question sent me to reflect on things that made me smile. duh. Truly, most of them are kinda trivial and simple. I guess that's what makes me a cheery person. Like chocolates, for example, seeing them stocked up on the fridge in all their chocolatey glory makes me smile. haha!